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24yrs sober and having a hard time trusting God evening knowing my way does'nt work

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I know GOD and myself have had our differences. Finally I can now say that we are at peace because I finlly let him do his job and realized that bad things happen to good people. I can honestly say now that my life has taken a most drastic change for the better since we have made peace, my life for the most part is good it is all in the way I look at the glass half full or half empty I am going with the half full theory. Someone once told me if u don't a higher power look around the room and look atm how many people u see who should by all rights dead but are recovering.

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Thanks guys for your input, I really needed to read that today. I'm at a crossroads myself. I don't know if I want to stay in my marriage. Since I got sober 2 years ago I have been learning who Iam and what He is all about., I met him in a bar, took him captive and married him 2 months later. He has enabled me for 10 years while I ran a muck. I go back and forth with wanting to leave and then staying because I know Im going thought changes. I do love him and he is a great guy. I'm having trouble hearing the voice of God. I know when the time to move on is right I trust God to let me know it. I have to keep working the steps and leave the results up to God. Thanks, I had to get that off my chest.

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It is true we sometimes have trouble knowing what is right for us.
Change is hard for this alcoholic and addict and sometimes I have to ask God r u sure this is what u want me to do. Fear has ruled my life for years most recently I have been doing better thanks to that relationship with God and the kind and loving people I hang with the winners of course. Have a great day and I know u will get that sign to do what is neccessary in your life.

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I had to take actions as if everything was going to be Ok. I don't know about Trust for anyone else, but for me. I have to earn trust and like wise mine has to be earned. What I need is a Belief and Faith. I don't believe you can be in fear and have faith. We all worry and wonder about what we have no control. That is fear. I must focus on what is in front of me at the present moment. I must take action and work steps 1,2& 3 daily sometimes until I can walk through the fear with a Faith in God and a Belief that if I pray and meditate on what is in front of me, everything will be ok. The difference for me is when I sought for Humility and wanted truth and integrity as a part of my being.(aka living the steps). I can do the next loving thing. I can say the serenity prayer and know that there is so much in my life that I have no control over. Pg. 417 in the 4th edition shares a point of Acceptance is the answer to ALL my problems.....unless I can accept.....I could not be Happy. A dear man that I love and helped to save my life by being honest enough with me talks about the Arogance of time. We all only have Today.....not yesterday....not tomorrow....today. I can't stay sober on yesterdays program, I have to take action today if I want the benefits mentioned in the program.........Nothing ensures immunity from that next drink like Intensive work with another Alcoholic!

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When you first meet a new person do you trust them ? Some people say [untill they do me wrong] I think that is to easy, as in the world of addictions that first time IS going to happen, even in sobriety. My point is,,Trust comes by waiting,watching, testing, and time. I didnt call a person my friend untill we had been thru something deep and they had my back. Likewise with God, My life was ??? extreemly dark....My faith is build on VERY solid ground today. Give it time. But do test it. If I am wrong it doesnt matter, but if I am right it is all that matters.

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Hi Chris
One thing I know is when I came to AA is I had a desire to have God in my life but knew I didn't. What I found is there is alot of difference between knowing about God and believing in the power of God. I had to develope a relationship of believing.
One of the things I found is that if I was living outside of my own beliefs (morals), I would never develope that belief in God. If it was wrong of me to do something I had to stop doing it. Wrong can never be right. I was blocking myself from the power of god by my actions. The wonderful thing about AA is I didn't have to believe in god to do the program. I developed a relationship of belief by doing the things I needed to do ie the steps no matter if I believed it would work or not. I began to trust God as a results of doing the work. I stopped putting mask on things and calling them something they weren't.
I started praying daily and thinking about what I needed to do different. There is a prayer I started saying daily. It wasn't saying the prayer that was important but it was believing it. That prayer I still say today. It is " Thank you for the opportunity of today. I now ask that you place before me only the things I can handle with your help." Today I believe that no matter what comes down the pike It is there because God said I can handle it. I have had to close my business, lose a marriage , foreclosure of my home, car repoed, death of mother, father and brother, yet nothing has broken my belief that my god and friends are there for me . Sometimes I just need the courage to let them know I need them.
Sometimes in AA because a person has amassed years of sobierty those around us seem to think we know what to do when the plain truce is we are scared and feeling all alone once again. Let the ones who know you best know what is going on. If I believe as I say I do, God will place before me the people who will help. All I need to do is invite them in.
May your trust of God be returned to true belief in the power of God.

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Isaiah 41:10
10 Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness.

God is always with you, whether you trust in him or not. He will give you strength, but asking for it helps.

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thank u all for your experience,strength,hope and prayers

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Rebellion Dogs my every step.......By default I am self-centered,self driven and ruled by fear. I am not perfect,but ther is one who is. Lack of Power is my dilema....There is One who has all Power. May WE find Him now!!!
I have to have faith and I have to seek for it constantly or I will perish. I believe it.
But that does not stop me from dragging my feet. from letting fear infect my thoughts and bring doubt into my reality. I have to rely on a Power Greater than myself and have Faith that He will lead me to a better way of life. Of myself, I am nothing.

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Hi Chris, you have no idea what a blessed position you are in. In your reply to Cate you say you have nothing you have lost everything. And that is fantastic! Because it means that you have finally come to the end of yourself. Now you are forced to trust in God and, moreover, give over your life to Him. This is what God wants. And this is the reason why He has brought you to this low point. He has stripped you of all your "idols" because from now onwards He will need to be first. He has a Divine plan for your life, so trust in Him and allow His plan to unfold in your life. Surrender your life to God, and see where He is going to take you...

God stripped me of everything too in 2006 (even my 2 dogs!). At that point I gave up my life in the world and and started serving Him full-time. Three years down the line I can attest that my level of happiness, peace and joy is unimaginable, my life ( in the Spirit) is truly supernatural, and materially I am never in need. TRUST IN GOD is all I can say.

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I have found that things come and go but being sober and not having surrenity is the worst place to be. Seek Him, get to Know His will for you. He loves you unconditionally and wants you to ask for his help. Surrender your life and your will to Him and He will show you the way. Trust that this is the truth because it worked for me. With Him on our side we can overcome anything. God Bless

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Well I just became sober. I want to stay that way. I am Catholic and I believe in second chances. GOD is giving me one.

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